They weren't kidding, this year of university certainly isn't something to laugh about. In the past month i've completed roughly six assignments out of a total of eight. The last two are 1400 and 1500 words each, though i'm hearing some nasty rumours about the latter one being changed to 2000 words. That is also the class where the lectuer is pressuring us about revision, we even need to learn by heart several referenced examples for each topic something thought too much to expect in past exams, with the author and date of each study done, she's even tagged on an oral presentation complete with slides.

I got up the nerve to talk to her about whether our communication skills would be assessed as i didn't want our group mark (oral presentation is in groups) to be dragged down because of my innate difficulty in communication. Only she said our communication skills would be assessed but that my autism wouldn't factor in as the presentation was done in a goup. There are too many inconsistancies in the way she said it, and i realise that i mearly said autistic and did not link it to worries about communication. Therefore it could be that she like a lot of people doesn't know what autism intales and supposed it was an intelletual worry. I've also realised that although my friend (dislexic) gets stickers to put on her work so that she is not marked down for spelling i do not, which does not match up with the authority in charge accepting that i had severe spelling difficulties.

When i was 14 it was tested as that of a 6/7 year old. Austisms not bad though, when i was 7 my non veral logic skills were marked as at a age 14 level (because their charts only went up to 14 and they had to mark it as something). I'd rather be able to work out solutions and not be able to spell them than be able to spell them but poor at working them out.

In other news i sent my cv off to four rescue centres to apply for work experence after my exams, all four of them have replied with a positive response despite my mother's doubt that they would do.

I'm also going to be working on my disertation this summer, i'm already decided what i want to do it on though i doubt anyone would want to supervise it. I feel i know enough about the subject area, and studying anything else would bore me. Think i'm going to have to put my foot down about it.

I'm also planning to learning how to drive this summer, i've tried before but it hasn't ended well. I need this skill before i go into mainstream work, so i'm going to have to bite my tongue and get on with it. I can't be afraid forever.

I also want to use this summer to get more done of my novel, university hasn't been kind to my writing time. That, more drawing practise and perhaps some extra volunteer work to bulk out by cv a bit more. I think those wonderful times when you don't need to do anything are a few years off at least.

My goals list:

* To finish my reasearch methods assignment
* To finish my behavioural ecology assignment
* To declare my module choices for third year
* To complete my second year exams
* to finish the novel i'm writing
* to pass my second year of university
* have ten thousand pounds to my name
* to buy my own graphics tablet
* be able to draw good enough for me to be proud of
* to draw my serious manga series
* to draw my not serious manga series
* to make my own animation

Things i need:

* Scratching post for cat
* two chinchilla cages
* graphics tablet
* dehumidier / air conditioner
* a house with land
* money